It’s mid-morning when my eldest child begs me to go outside and play in the leaves.
It takes me a few more minutes to finally surrender to what I know is the Holy Spirit leading me to exchange my no with a great big YES. To put on my muddy old moccasins and run outside right along with the kids and play in the morning sunshine in those glorious Autumn leaves.
To forget about the schedule.
Thank you, Lord.
I grab the camera, as I always do when beauty overwhelms me, and snap photos as we play.
The world on our street is a blaze of oranges, deep reds, and golden yellow. It’s more breath-taking than and picture can capture. The sun is the perfect warmth. The trees are raining down twirling leaves. The crunch-crunch Fall sound is beneath our feet.
It is literally the most perfect Autumn morning the Lord could have created.
And I almost missed it. We almost missed it.
We almost missed this perfect morning gift waiting just outside our back door –
Because I was obsessed with my schedule.
The do-this, do-that, and put the checkmarks beside the boxes, schedule.
We walk up the lane under a canopy of Autumn colours. My son is convinced he can make the biggest pile of leaves possible with the use of the shovel and brute strength. So, looking silly to any onlooking neighbours I’m sure, there we were – hauling leaves with a rake and a heavy duty snow plow.
And I guess it worked, because, boy did we collect quite the pile.
Somewhere between surrendering and saying ‘yes’ and snapping photos of the kids throwing handfuls of leaves in the air and laughing wildly, I hear it deep within. It’s like I’m asking myself a gut-wrenching question but I already know the answer:
How many times have I let our schedule steal our joy?
I think I have these clear ideas of why we homeschool and what I truly long for my days to look like and how much time I will spend in pure enjoyment of the journey – and then? Then life happens.
All of a sudden, I’m choosing some silly schedule over the most perfect, blissful Autumn morning. Forgetting the freedom we embraced when we said yes to home education. Forgetting that the Still Small Voice of our Heavenly Father always (always) knows best. And He’s always whispering, if I would just stop and listen.
Forgetting the pure joy of letting go and saying, ‘let’s do it’, to an unexpected morning leaf fight.
There was this gift just waiting to be unwrapped and savoured with thankful, giggling, joy-filled children – and I almost missed it. I almost let my schedule steal the crazy joy God had for us all in that special moment. And friends we just can’t do it – we can’t let our schedule steal our joy – whether its a printed schedule or the one in our head.
I mean, the work got done.
Later. When it clouded over and we all sighed deep and whispered how glad we were that we drank in all that morning sunlight.
That’s just it. There is always a later for that crazy schedule and there will always be things that are left undone and there will always be more we wished we had of done. But these children? They won’t stay young forever. They won’t want to run wild and crazy in leaves forever. And it won’t be like this forever – Mama and my young ones, begging me to just say YES and play with them.
Just say YES and build a deep rooted relationship with them.
Just say YES to how the Lord longs to bless us this sunny morning.
Just say YES to the trails of blazing leaves dumped in our back room.
Just say YES to unexpected, unscheduled joy.
Because, the best things in life, you just can’t schedule.
I’m convinced that much is true.